October 17, 2007

Gratuitous Crossing the Tiber Posting

I hesitate even to tell this story since a fair number of you probably already think I'm either losing it or have lost it entirely, but here goes:

I had a dream about Faith last night. So far as I can recollect, I have never done so before.

But it was Faith in a physical form - a vast, vast structure, both extremely simple and infinitely complex, with an air of immeasurable strength and permanence. It was also luminous and shiny, like cream-colored steel.

And in the dream, I would examine a very small bit of it. Just as I began to understand what I was looking at, another connection would flash across my mind, completely changing my perspective and putting me back at square one in terms of comprehension. The pattern kept repeating itself over and over again, and as it repeated itself I was increasingly aware that there was no way I would ever, ever be able to understand it. Nonetheless, I kept trying because I was so taken with it.

Then the dream shifted. There was no longer any recognizable structure, but more a group of physical thoughts. Two groups, rather, because one group was somehow generated by the Faith, while the other was generated by a kind of nebulous black maelstrom hovering around the horizon, which I recognized as Evil. Evil would send a "thought" into the center of what I was seeing, and Faith would check it with another. Again the pattern was repeated a number of times, giving me the sense that it was an ongoing struggle. I also had the sense that for the first time I was seeing the "business" side of Faith, seeing it not just as a feel-good pablum, but as a deadly-serious sentinal against the chaos on the outside. Frankly, it frightened me.

I woke up thinking that I had got myself into something waaaaay over my head.

It is, of course, impossible to relate a dream with complete accuracy, but I swear this was the impression left in my mind when I tried to recall it.

Note to self: No more reading the Catechism late at night after eating onions with dinner.....

UPDATE: Yup, there's a website for everthin' now. Via the Webelf Report, I stumbled across the Catholic Converts blog, a page devoted to those going through RCIA.

Posted by Robert at October 17, 2007 09:33 AM | TrackBack
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In dreams, the faith to me usually appears as a large college campus with a strange mixture or architecture -- collegiate gothic, renaissance buildings reminiscent of Venice or Pisa, Byzantine churches, and occasionally the "temporary" white wooden buildings that are so prevalent on Army posts. They are usually pretty pleasant dreams; I am returning to a campus for the beginning of a semester. My instructors in the dream usually appear as Dominican or Benedictine monks.

Posted by: The Colossus at October 17, 2007 10:50 AM

From the Jesuit mother church in Rome:

Triumph of Faith over Idolatry

Posted by: Mark S at October 17, 2007 11:14 AM

You must see what is Right, what is True and what is Just.....Then it will be as easy as feeding Peanuts to an Elephant....I am always wary when driving route 66 before crossing the bridge to Portland, CT. There are some strange beings there. What trust fund do they come from?

Posted by: IHSV at October 17, 2007 07:23 PM

Beautiful dream. I've had similar dreams myself. They will probably continue--although I wouldn't make the mistake of putting too much stock in them. Still, they can be very meaningful.

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