Gratuitous Crossing the Tiber Posting

I hesitate even to tell this story since a fair number of you probably already think I'm either losing it or have lost it entirely, but here goes:

I had a dream about Faith last night. So far as I can recollect, I have never done so before.

But it was Faith in a physical form - a vast, vast structure, both extremely simple and infinitely complex, with an air of immeasurable strength and permanence. It was also luminous and shiny, like cream-colored steel.

And in the dream, I would examine a very small bit of it. Just as I began to understand what I was looking at, another connection would flash across my mind, completely changing my perspective and putting me back at square one in terms of comprehension. The pattern kept repeating itself over and over again, and as it repeated itself I was increasingly aware that there was no way I would ever, ever be able to understand it. Nonetheless, I kept trying because I was so taken with it.

Then the dream shifted. There was no longer any recognizable structure, but more a group of physical thoughts. Two groups, rather, because one group was somehow generated by the Faith, while the other was generated by a kind of nebulous black maelstrom hovering around the horizon, which I recognized as Evil. Evil would send a "thought" into the center of what I was seeing, and Faith would check it with another. Again the pattern was repeated a number of times, giving me the sense that it was an ongoing struggle. I also had the sense that for the first time I was seeing the "business" side of Faith, seeing it not just as a feel-good pablum, but as a deadly-serious sentinal against the chaos on the outside. Frankly, it frightened me.

I woke up thinking that I had got myself into something waaaaay over my head.

It is, of course, impossible to relate a dream with complete accuracy, but I swear this was the impression left in my mind when I tried to recall it.

Note to self: No more reading the Catechism late at night after eating onions with dinner.....

UPDATE: Yup, there's a website for everthin' now. Via the Webelf Report, I stumbled across the Catholic Converts blog, a page devoted to those going through RCIA.